Without a doubt, 2009 was a ball of fun. Being 16 is definitely as sweet as they say. No worries, no nothing. It upstaged my expectations. Having mixed feeling about 2010. Part of me can't wait to face the new obstacles that awaits in 2010 and the other part of me just wanna relive the moment of 2009. Everything. The ups and the, suprisingly, downs. To stay like a kid for just a little longer. Not having responsibilities. But what would life be without responsibilities. I honestly cannot believe I'm going to be 17 in a few short months. It's truly remarkable how time flies by so fast. Despite it all, I'm still ready for a new year. I want/need a new beginning. This year is gonna be different, for sure. Less kiddish and more mature. You can only imagine how excited I am...

Being 17 means I still got a year more of schooling. AWESOME. The moment we all have been waiting for. When we can finally get out of the awful school uniforms we have to put up with for the ten years of our life. We can finally be free. I want nothing more than to be given the freedom to lead my life on my own. Take control of things that are rightfully mine.

Personality/Characteristic wise. You all may know me as the loud and obnoxious girl who talks about people behind their backs according to reliable source. How far from the truth that maybe, I'm gonna change. I'm only human. Making mistakes are inevitable for us. And I'm still taking it one at a time. Learning everyday. Gaining more and more knowledge which I'm opening my arms to receive. I don't wanna feel bad everytime I do something regardless whether it maybe of good or bad. Inconclusion, this year, I wanna be happy and proud of the things I've done. I wanna do something that contributes greatly to society in a beneficial way.

Growing up, I always thought that there's something wrong with me. That I have to change for people to accept me. And yeah, believe me, no one wanted to hangout with me back then cause I was a freak. And I mean no one. I changed my everything constantly through out the years and without a doubt the people who knows me for a long time can tell. All this just for the approval from people. I was so into making people to like me. Not for me to like me. Does that make sense? LOL It just hurts not being like. I thought to myself that there must be a reason for all this hate. Came to the conclusion that it was me. Inorder to "FIT IN", I have to alter everything. Which I did. And this is what I have become. I literally cannot remember who I used to be except that I was decent. Now? I'm constantly battling with my parents, I go out late at night doing shit, etc etc. To be honest, I hate it. If I could, I'd go back being the friendless loser. At least, back then, I never did any wrong. Nowadays, I commit sins like there's no tomorrow. Of course, I've gain friends through this change in me but... Well, to make it easy... I rather be a friendless loser than have friends who secretly hate me. It's hard to find anything real these days. Unfortunately, my adolescence is during this period. Goshh.

Guess who's going to Singapore for a week or two? AHAH! I can't wait! My flights on Thursday. THIS THURSDAY! Peace y'all. I'mma have some fun, FINALLY.

My baby cousin Obie is BACK! woots! The last time I saw him, my little brother and I were making him cry, effortlessly, cause it was funny. Yeah, I never said I like kids. ;) It's not I despise Obie, it's... I don't know really. He's cute and everything, I guess I kinda like making little kids cry. Weird... Anyways, it's a friday here. Meaning??? Meaning I'm going out. AHAH! I'm going to Parkson later with my iban, Nana. We're gonna meet a few friends there then go watch NEW MOON baby! I'm not a fan of the series but yeah, I just think Rob's kinda hot. ;)

xoxo
AthiraJ.

I tried being this "PERFECT DAUGHTER" by staying home at not go out. Like period... But it's just not me. Yeah, my mum seems happier but I'm not. Am I selfish to want to have fun? It's not like I go out everyday, every hour, every minute. I stay home in the mornings and get crazy going out by night. I spent 15 years of my life caged at home watching the tele and eating like a pig. AHAH that explains my frame. Even my parents have been nagging me to go out for a walk, get some fresh air. Now? It's like they want me to do that inside. Well, I think it's cause I usually go out at night till the A.M. :D It's not like I intentionally want to go back that late. I don't have a watch. I can't tell the time. Especially when I'm having so much fun. So yeah, I've tried and now, I'm going back to my old ways. I'm 16! When do I ever be 16 again. This is it. I need to have fun now. Cause yeah, next year is gonna be HELL. The BIG exam! I'm definitely not gonna be like this next year that's for sure. Maybe some nights but of course, I'll cut back. I hope my parents understand, I mean, they were 16 too in a different decade but still 16! They're gonna be disappointed, I know. This is just a phase in life. And I love my parents dearly despite previous posts. Right now, I'm thinking about me. And I'm gonna have FUN!

xoxo
AthiraJ.